Life isn't A.Bed. Of. Roses

Life isn't a bed of roses. Yeah, I know that. But, sometimes, it shouldn't be too much hurtful. Wise men said that those who suffer from disappointment in their childhood tend to grow in disappointment throughout their life. Well, I guess that is what happens to me now. I keep on disappointing because I couldn't let go of every inch of hurtful stuff in the past. I guess I just probably doesn't get to find the cure for such poison yet, am I right?
So, you whom I trusted with my life, then betray me. Don't you think that I will at least try not to look into your eyes ever again? You never felt such disappointment as I had . So, I won't blame you for that reason. But, as a human being,.just a human being, can you at least try to make the effort not to hurt me even more?!!! Can't you see that I'm holding it in so hard?! Can't you even make an attempt to realise and seek me some peace?! Some kind deeds?! You just can't get enough of making me wounded. Maybe, when I'm torn apart, that is the time when you will stop..so, don't you ever try to change my attitude upon you because now is the time for me to take care of my own priorities and that is not YOU!!! Enough of toying me around. Enough of acting. Your act..