Life isn't A.Bed. Of. Roses

Life isn't a bed of roses. Yeah, I know that. But, sometimes, it shouldn't be too much hurtful. Wise men said that those who suffer from disappointment in their childhood tend to grow in disappointment throughout their life. Well, I guess that is what happens to me now. I keep on disappointing because I couldn't let go of every inch of hurtful stuff in the past. I guess I just probably doesn't get to find the cure for such poison yet, am I right?
So, you whom I trusted with my life, then betray me. Don't you think that I will at least try not to look into your eyes ever again? You never felt such disappointment as I had . So, I won't blame you for that reason. But, as a human being,.just a human being, can you at least try to make the effort not to hurt me even more?!!! Can't you see that I'm holding it in so hard?! Can't you even make an attempt to realise and seek me some peace?! Some kind deeds?! You just can't get enough of making me wounded. Maybe, when I'm torn apart, that is the time when you will stop..so, don't you ever try to change my attitude upon you because now is the time for me to take care of my own priorities and that is not YOU!!! Enough of toying me around. Enough of acting. Your act..

my life now

Ok. Assalamualaikum. Dah lama tk citer citer kat sini. Well. Alhamdulillah. Now , I da move on!!! Yeah!!! Sekarang I da move on from the old memories of him. Well, lagipun org ckp. How can we be happy when we don't.move on from those who left us?? I took that as an advice and started to realise that for all this time I was hurting myself by falling hard into him whereas he, on the other side, doesn't feel it at all. But, the time I took to come back to my sense wasn't a waste. It'll only gonna make me wiser. So now I can tell him that I am happy for him. Oops, I forgot to tell you that he is now in a deep love with somebody. He said that she was a bless that come to him when he was down. Well, sometimes it is hurtful to hear such things but I'd be happy for him. That's the best thing that I can do. Well well well. I hope he will marry her and be happy.forever. because to me, he was one of my favorite favorite nightmare. And now.I woke up, he is only a dust in the thin air. Now, goodbye u thin dust.. Hahaha
Ok, another story, it is about a girl who messed up my life. Don't she thinks she some kind of queen?!! Oh, you're suck bitch. Oops, haha. She is a big nuisance, a bullshit. Now that I th.about.it through, I'm.going to fight fir my right and no one can ever stop me. You and your swing mood, go away from my life!!!

abg...

alhamdulillah. I don't know any more word to describe how I feel right now. he has returned back to me. after three years, he walked away from my life because of what I did to him, now. he has returned. he was hurt and now he recovered. I couldn't say much when he greets me again. it feels like a dream. I couldn't imagine a man whom I was about to forget suddenly came back and reached out his hand for my heart. truly, I couldn't lie anymore. he is the one I've been looking for, for all this while ..

alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah.. at last, result spm da keluar and I got the exact result yg I deserve to get. no offended feeling cuz I know it worth like that. I dont need more so tengs Allah for every thing you gave me. To all my tc, frenz and family, thanks for the support. I am really thankful for everything.

And also alhamdulillah cuz I am not hurt anymore when I see his pic with another girl who owns his heart. I've learned that h wasn't the one for me. May Allah always bless him and his special one till Jannah. Amin. Insyaallah. There will be someone better than him for me in the future. Insyaallah....